It's been nine weeks since my WLS and I'm down 31 lbs. Not the "quick" loss everyone thinks it is. I probably could have been doing better because I haven't been doing my exercises consistently. I've averaged a bit over 3 pounds a week.
I've heard alot of people say that having the surgery was the best thing they ever did....I'm not there yet. I go back and forth alot. Is it easier to eat less? Yes. Am I hungry? Some, but not near what I was. Do I miss what I can't have now? Sometimes. When most of your meals consist of just protein, at least for now, you are limited and it can get boring. Lately I've been substituting a few meals with more shakes cause the thought of just eating meat get's a bit old.
I will admit to a bad habit that I have that has to be worked on. I'm a scale whore. I'm on that thing everyday and sometimes more than that. I get so wrapped up in the numbers that I start to flip just a bit. I know that it's common to gain water weight, that there is no way I could have consumed enough calories to gain a couple pounds overnight. After all I'm eating about 700-800 calories a day. It still twists me up mentally some.
It's also very hard to "see" the results for me. If you've never been overweight, or morbidly obese like me, it's a bit hard to explain. When I look at myself I still see the old me. I realize that I'm wearing a smaller size, and it baffles me that it fits, cause this old fat body just shouldn't fit in it. I need to be more present in my thoughts. Take pride in what I have accomplished and not be down on myself for what I still need to lose. I have lost 60 pounds since the beginning of all of this and have that much more to go, so technically I'm half way to my goal. The mind is a sometimes crazy place to be stuck in.
My goal this month is to be good about exercise, after all it isn't like I don't have the time. It's just getting started that seems to be the hardest thing. Once on the treadmill I feel better and am able to challenge myself against the last time and distance I walked. My sis is bringing back my exercise bike so that I will be able to do while watching tv which will help with the boredom of just staring at a wall while walking. It's too cold now to walk outside, that will be warmer weather treat.